I suck at resolutions. So I decided to try "goals". I make a list of about 7 or so every year and post by my desk, in my office.
Funny thing being, I have ADHD combined, and I have visual-related issues. In other words, I often ignore things in plain sight due to executive dysfunction and working memory. Or, once it's been there for a bit, I'll gloss right over it. Like I can't even see it.
I posted 7 goals for 2025, CONVINCED it was going to be my year.
This.
Did.
Not.
Happen.
Not remotely. Not semi-remotely. Just...no.
Had a massive bout of depression. Hadn't been that bad in years. Rough start. Lost my precious Simba in May. Still absolutely gutted.
I didn't want to do anything. And honestly? I didn't have the energy or wherewithal to even BEGIN.
Little me. Lost at sea.
Turned on to a new medication for depression. 😊 It's a bit different, but it's helping. Also, trying a new mood stabilizer.
And guess what? My life is overflowing with wonderful things. (My body is still unholy as fuck-all...thanks Fibro. 😒)
I finished "Dream Walker" which I started like a bat out of hell and then let sit for months. I put a new cover on a short story and published that. I usually do three conferences: February and two in August.
This year? I have two more in October and two in November.
And the best got damn news I've had in a minute?
A previous publisher gave me back ALL MY RIGHTS to those earlier books. I think there's around ten, plus six or so short stories. 💃💃💃
Suddenly, I'm like...holy SHIT! I hit three of the seven goals.
3 OF 7! 💖
(in less than a month)
All my rambling summed up to say: If you're struggling, find help. Do not be quiet. Do not suffer. Depression is a right whore, and I tried so many medications hoping to help with it. They did not. Current med is.
Manifest what you desire. Write that shit down. Believe in it. Believe in yourself.
No two roads are the same, but there ARE roads.
And, do what you are meant to be doing. If you can't do it full-time, then squeeze it in when you're able. It'll feed your soul. 💗
